Well, I am 10 weeks pregnate. We have done the first sonagram where you see something smaller than a bean with a beating heart. We are currently calling it the bean. It is a very surreal experience and more strange than anything else and it is just so hard to comprehend that this is growing inside of you.
I met with my birth mom this weekend and she brought with her a pac-n-play--it's a bassinet and play pen in one. When she showed it to me--all I could do was look at it in disbelief. Just looking at the picture made me recoil, who is this for?? me?. This green pac-n-play made my pregnancy more real than anything else. I mean I think about the baby a lot. What I am eating. How I am feeling. But I have not had crazy morning sickness like others and so for the most part feel the same just more tired than usual. So why would this object make me swallow hard--force me to see what is really happening. I could not even think about opening it. She did it all while I sat there and thought of the countless times I had done this for other friends and their babies. So now it is in our room the first real baby thing that we have and it is like an elephant standing there starring at me. Saying, "are you ready." I am so not!