It has been coming for awhile, but I did not see it on the horizon until it got here. You know in hind sight either I see the signs now or maybe I am just looking for them. Losing both of may parents in the last couple of years has shaped my life in so many ways and brought me nearly to my breaking point. The birth of my son kept me afloat. My love for him an anchor.
Also, working at Carlsbad Caverns and walking for hours everyday through this mind blowing cave. As I looked around at these beautiful and giant formations I was overwhelmed with the sheer amount of time that I witnessed in their growth. We are such small parts of time on the continuum. Anyway, I feel now like all this happened and has worked or conspired to lead me down a spiritual path that I never thought I would dare to tread. I made lots of boast in the past ....
So here I am getting a wake up call from some crazy book that I cannot stop thinking about. She has a phenomenal way of writing about experiences and I found I related to them and could see myself there. And just as I am wishing for something to help me continue on this path..a Guru arrives.
I was fortunate enough to spend five hours with her. Listening, asking questions and wishing my memory worked. As my subconscious takes it all in --The divine is already within you. God is not in you but you and everything around you are in God. I have no way to capture what she said and what resonated so strongly to me.
I am working to get all this from my head to my heart. Faith I have always struggled with this. I spend too much time trying to analyze and less relying on myself and what I know to be true. She has a taped radio program on her website. It is good and does her way more justice than I am doing...but my heart is there.
As she said, look for the divine in everything and especially in our children. Here is my son enjoying a divine moment for sure.